PICTURE OF HARDEST TIME OF MY LIFE
I had the urge to describe an image in my head ever since I started picturing it. I drew the image in my mind in 2014. I really liked to share it with you but I could not mainly because I was not an artist neither did I had a good command of English language to describe the image in my head. Recently I came across this picture which resembles the one I had in my head in 2014/2015
Before I share the image let me talk about what I was going through. During this time, I was suffering from serious poor mental health. I was depressed. I had suicidal thoughts and I also attempted to take my life on many occasions. I remember one day I wanted to throw myself into the valley of moving water and cheating God by pretending I am swimming yet I don't know how to swim. But I decided to swim (commit suicide) after Dhuhr prayer just to forget it. I was 15.I was perfect example of failure.I was weak and sickly. I was psychologically traumatized. Sharing my mental health is more painful because you would be shamed if not shackled and chained. So the disease accumulated in my body silently for some time. Furthermore I got surgery near my spine and treatment stopped due the cost of drugs. 2015 Global Refugee Crises led to more than 30% of services decreased.
In the picture I can see myself grasping the tip of a hill on one hand and waving for help with the other. The rest of my body is suspended. I am in serious danger; brink of death. Variation of human beings are walking on a road above the hill. I am asking for help from relatives, those who know me and finally elders and religious authorities while trying to keep my dignity. I am pleading 'please save my life'.People either reject while blaming me or ignore. I lost faith in them and what they believe as well. As a last resort I am shouting to a stranger to assist me by whichever means necessary. Because the stranger is geographically far away from me and he don't see me I least expected any help from a strange foreigner.
But I gave him a try.I prayed like he prayed to save a daughter " God if you are there, help me. If you save me God I will also help other children" I also make more promises .The stranger comes and leans, puts himself into danger and lifts me up so that I can walk. I feel relieved.'' Alhamdulilah! '' I say as I try to fulfill my promises with God.
In my article, Life-Saving Ways to help the refugees, I emphasized the importance of consulation and listening. May be, who knows, by giving time to someone you may save his/her life.
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| A man from far distance puts himself into danger to save a life |
Before I share the image let me talk about what I was going through. During this time, I was suffering from serious poor mental health. I was depressed. I had suicidal thoughts and I also attempted to take my life on many occasions. I remember one day I wanted to throw myself into the valley of moving water and cheating God by pretending I am swimming yet I don't know how to swim. But I decided to swim (commit suicide) after Dhuhr prayer just to forget it. I was 15.I was perfect example of failure.I was weak and sickly. I was psychologically traumatized. Sharing my mental health is more painful because you would be shamed if not shackled and chained. So the disease accumulated in my body silently for some time. Furthermore I got surgery near my spine and treatment stopped due the cost of drugs. 2015 Global Refugee Crises led to more than 30% of services decreased.
In the picture I can see myself grasping the tip of a hill on one hand and waving for help with the other. The rest of my body is suspended. I am in serious danger; brink of death. Variation of human beings are walking on a road above the hill. I am asking for help from relatives, those who know me and finally elders and religious authorities while trying to keep my dignity. I am pleading 'please save my life'.People either reject while blaming me or ignore. I lost faith in them and what they believe as well. As a last resort I am shouting to a stranger to assist me by whichever means necessary. Because the stranger is geographically far away from me and he don't see me I least expected any help from a strange foreigner.
But I gave him a try.I prayed like he prayed to save a daughter " God if you are there, help me. If you save me God I will also help other children" I also make more promises .The stranger comes and leans, puts himself into danger and lifts me up so that I can walk. I feel relieved.'' Alhamdulilah! '' I say as I try to fulfill my promises with God.
In my article, Life-Saving Ways to help the refugees, I emphasized the importance of consulation and listening. May be, who knows, by giving time to someone you may save his/her life.
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